How to Think

Well If I knew how to think, it would solve all my problems, I would know the answer maybe before I questioned myself.  Ha
To think about what I know,
I know that I have a great Family, of course none of them are perfect, and that is good.
I know that I have to train my brain to remain positive, think Happy and it will happen.
I am better at this now, way more than a year ago.
I know that I worry too much, I wear my feelings on my shirt sleeve, and I would like
to say what I think more often.
I know that I don't speak out because it is my opinion and it wouldn't make a difference to others,
basically they don't deserve my thoughts or my time to say them.
I know that I try hard not to judge others, I am fairly good at it, and getting better.  I am very
aware of this when I hear others judge and verbalize it.  Goes back to having an opinion,
and believeing sometimes we need to keep those to ourselves.
I know that my tolerance for snotty, spoiled, selfish, people is very low.
I know that I do not want to be around them.
I know that I have to sometimes be around them. (at work)

I know above all else, that I will remain positive, think things through, continue to keep my opinions to myself, keep my tolerance of others at a palatable level, and Be Happy because I am Blessed in so many ways, that I couldn't begin to list all the blessings in my life.

All is well.
That is How to Think.

A Space

Breathing is hard
 when you want some space.

Space that belongs to you.....
An area of your own,
A spot to call yours
just to breath.

To sing
To dance
To cry

A space to just
Be You

Find my Staying Even

It is really Hard to find the "Even" and then Harder to stay in  this "EVEN"
 Then even harder to keep it.
"Even" is something we never are really.  or is it?
Do some women find that they desire this "Even"of Self;
   the self being EVEN
 I have been hunting for the "Even Keel" for a mighty long time;
Maybe I do Not neet to hunt for this, or Have it.........
Maybe the desire to feel this way it a natural
Yet, maybe I am just weird,,,,,,,, and maybe I will never know.
all thru the days,, Staying even makes me wonder.




NICE WORDS & THOUGHTS


Comfort on difficult days,
smiles when sadness intrudes,
 rainbows to follow the clouds,
 laughter to kiss your lips,
 sunsets to warm your heart,
 hugs when spirits sag,
beauty for your eyes to see,
 friendships to brighten your being,
 faith so that you can believe,
confidence for when you doubt,
courage to know yourself,
 patience to accept the truth,
 Love to complete your life.”
 ~ Author Unknown ♥

Not all about ME..............

All about me, .............................
My world around
It is my place to roam
to think, to absorb, to learn about life here on the ground.
I cannot see what it is, in the fog ahead
won't be clear until I get there you see and then it will be what I make it,
as I can only make a part of it about me.

All Balled UP

If being Tight as a Drum, makes you Wound up and ready to explode

Then being all balled up, makes you ready for the explosion

The fire will simmer only so long, then it will explode..................

Sharing some words

Simply Positive

If no one was ever to occasionally (respectfully) criticize us, then how would we get insight on ourselves & become fully aware?

 We are often unfocused & distracted from the multitude of things we have to juggle. While we may always have the best intentions, sometimes we are blind to our actions & how we affect people due to it. 

In order to learn, grow, adjust, change, or improve, we need to become, or be made aware of things. Don't get discouraged or let criticism affect you negatively so much. 

Hey, we are all human. No one is perfect. And it is not "always" meant to hurt you. It can also be a good thing sometimes & helpful if you use it.

 It can serve to awaken, inspire, strengthen, & motivate you to make amends, fix, re-focus, switch directions, or positively move forward again in your life. 

While on occasion it may seem or feel negative, or even hurtful, always keep an open mind. You may thank someone one day. :)

Mud

Full of Mud, my road ahead unclear

I struggle to see my feet

Trudging as if not getting anywhere.

Stomping in and out of truth

My vision is impaired.

Is there a light at the end?

A light to guide my mind

to a bend I do not see.

The Mud will suck me in

before I have the chance 

to really see

all of life's changes

In store for me.

Acceptance

Acceptance

Unique and complicated as the humans we are.

To accept things for how they are, 

people for who they are and 

remember we did it.

To Accept

Is to show that However it turns out to be, is ok.

Is to show those around us that they can be who they are, no matter what.

to remind ourselves we Accept 

Things accepted will turn out to make us better people.

Thinking is not acceptance, as we may not like it, or agree with it, or know that is different,

we just accept it as it is, and keep what we think to ourselves.

So little ACCEPTANCE goes a long way.

LONG AGO

I want to write of a time long ago when the crops were harvested by hand,

and the washing was done on wash day.  The silver was polished on polish day, and 

ironing done on its day too.  When the chore list was so long that it was impossible

to get it done and raise their children too.

A time Long Ago, we forget so easily.  When just because a human was another color

they were slaves to others.

A time not Long Ago, somewhere near by, where the human is any race and are 

still slaves to others.

Not so Long Ago.

smile instead

when you know everything, and repeat yourself

over and over again, I cringe

when you say you don't know, and you act like you do

over and over again, I get angry

when you are insistant on being right

I let you, because it is easier for me

but you are not right, which leaves me in turmoil.

And sad....

so I smile instead.

Trusty Steed

Oh Trusty Steed
you stand so tall
strong and kind

I hearYour Neigh 
and I know
you want to play

My friend, 
I share with you
my deepest secrets
my fears, wants and needs
and this works for me


You are the Friend
who listens well
never judging
who lets me sit a spell

We ride together
my loving friend
Just here and there
and in the wind.


You are very good to me
yet, silently you want some feed.
My good Ole Trusty Steed


July 31, 2011
Sheila Burnette

Noises

So tired of Noises,

I hear them all day around me.,

The Noises of the voices,,,,,,

The loud stories and laughter

It becomes GRATING

Noise of The fans, The doorbell , 

The phone ringing.

I savor silence........

don't talk to me,,,,,,,,

Don't bark at me,,,,,,,

Turn the TV off.

I need some Silence

To drown the Noises 

That never go away

from the inside of my head.

Just Quiet.............

Trying

Trying to believe, and be

the what and way

I want to be

Trying to see the good

view it from above where I should

A clearer view with silent eyes

searching for the common ties

Trying to find

the apple pie

by the

the golden rule

Trying to realize 

the difference between 

fancy and truth

Trying to hide

allowing some time

before I die

a working mule

trying to .................

Fighting

If I could only stop fighting my self

Things would be easier........I am so sure.

Sadly, I've been trying, and sometimes I am good,,,,,,,,and I am growing and my leaves are thriving.

I provide some shade,,,,,,,and greet my people, enjoy their presence and ........

Yet there are times, my branches sag.....and my leaves they curl, I feel my strength dwindling sadly.

I know I must stand strong......I try as I am,,,,, to keep the strength, for those whom will need,

My saplings a grow, under my branches and leaves.

I don't even know how to spell tonight.........

But I am the tired tree........


 

Shedding Tears

To Shed a Tear

Not in fear

My heart feels heavy

Yet I will keep

pushed by emotion

My eyes do weep

 with

Tears on my cheeks

Memories I recall, of moments past

to think of them.... some, I will pass  

Select a few and make them last 

A falling Tear

drips over the cheek

close the eye

to let it weep

Talks to have, decisions to make

My head I will shake

and tears I will make.

Positive Thoughts

I started writing this as a complaint.  Two sentences later I realized that I needed to think positive to eliminate the negative.

Tired and Hurting everywhere........ I am Thankful for my Job

On the fence about Love........... I am thankful he is alive

Providing the one Income..........  It is hard, but there are others in more dire situations

Resentful of never having time to my self.............I would miss everyone if they were not here

Feeling like I could easily become a loner..................  I can be social

Forgetting who I am...........................................I will re-evaluate this

Sadness can overwhelm me in a Flash...............don't take things so seriously is how I should be

Feel Stuck Financially...............................I make enough to take care of our needs

I severely Detest going to the grocery store....................   I am glad I have coffee creamer, and food too.  

People around me really are into them selves....... they think of just them, and what will benefit them.  They think that by not saying something, and then I see it....... Makes it some how ok, when it is not......why hide stuff........because it is an alliance between them,  I act like I do not care, but I believe inside I do.  It feels like a slap in the face .  In free minutes, I leave......run from them.....I do not want to say something and be mean.....or lose my temper.  Then they excuse me of other stuff.  I don't want them to know anything about my life.....I think the 2 around me are also two faced,,,,,,and maybe a 3rd one too.  As I think about it......I really think that 8 of them are really just manipulaters, users, and I am not that smart to realize it.  Scary, but I guess My eyes are getting a bit clearer......and less cloudy.  Everytime I think that I see some open gate where they are being kind, I find thousands of reasons why it is fake.

Man I am just a Beach,  Well I am done Wining for now..........

The Passing

Today was a passing of many things.

My age is now past me, and I am a new age.......... As it is my birthday.

 A great man whom I have known since I was 3 Passed today, and we are very sad.........

It is setting in right now......the fact that he is gone as we know him here., but he is free,  and walks now through his property with ease.

Now I am so tired I am having muscle spasams,    gotta get some sleep

Our changes

Everyday we change as does our surroundings.  Our body, our way of thinking, our emotions, our lifestyle, our medical condition, our financial situation, and so much more.  Outside stressers can cause a multitude of symptoms.  Hard as it is, we do not have control over 99,9% of it.  Only part we can control is how we respond, and NOT react to it.  If we react to everything every minute of every day, we would go crazy. (maybe we are crazy).  Of all the 1% of what we DO have control over is a small # and a huge amount.    If we find ourselves NOT being happy and cannot pin point what it is, we have to know that WE must find that inner happiness of ourselves first, concentrating on taking care of ourselves, will allow us the strength, and thought to find acceptance in our lives as it is.  Yes we can make it somewhat how we want it, but don't expect too much.  There is that fine line between what we think we want or need, and what we find that we can be content with, and what we really do need.  Being with the right people/surroundings is a big part of who you are or who you want to become.  If they can have it, why cannot I, If they can do It, why can't I.  Well I may or may not be able to Do or Have what they do, but I only have to have what makes me content in my life.  Who is most important, Keeping up with the Jone's or just Being who you are.Who are you.  What is important to you.  Goals that are easily obtainable,,,,,,, and keep ideas for bigger ethings in the back of your mind.

  Enough ranting for now,  Its life.

In The Middle

In the middle of my forest.......... I just want to scream.  It is the middle of the cycle, and I can feel the tension in my body.  It sucks.  It zaps me and I am so so tired.  I feel like I have just ran a marathon.  Of course I have been running one for a couple of years now.

I also find that at this time of month, I do not accept snide comments form others who think they are superior some how.  I don't respond, for a couple of reasons,  It is not worth it to get riled up. and It would not make a difference to anyone and just make me look bad. good reasoning, Yet I then stew about it of course.  which really sucks.....  Real tired of being slapped in the face by the comments referring to my situation.

  So tired of working 12 hour days....... and coming home to NO Dinner cooked, and  "He has been busy too."  OK, I can see what he did, but why not think that dinner should be ready by 6ish, and who ever can be home eats, and the others get to pick,,,,,,, I mean really......... I need to give him a menu.

ok, so I am just being cranky......... I know there are others of your who is cranky too :)

Just Life's Journey, as it Changes

Life for me has changed, like a tree changes.  Hence

"The Feeling Tree"

I learn something new everyday,,,,,,,I love quotes...........and I hope to read yours.  

A Welcome Tree

Hello,,,,,,,, This is not intended to be all about trees.  But I wanted to share what I wrote that inspired me to start a Blog, along with the help of my friend Linda.

At the Edge of the Meadow

Surrounded by aged pines, I stand........... Swaying in the breeze

My white trunk solid, holding each strong branch

bearing my leaves as they flutter in the wind.

Whispering my strength through my every vein

Sun shining through and into my inner circle, feeding my soul.

.....Chilled winds and rain blow down.  My changing leaves of Red, Orange, Yellow and Brown

falling over a small space in time.

For snow soon to fall, I shall sleep, only to wake in the spring.

1/10/11